Sometimes, I get the meaning when people say things happen for a reason. It taught us meaningful lessons, be it good one or the bad one. Throughout most of my life, I live in guilt, guilt of what should be done, guilt of things that isn't entire out of my control. I tried my best forgiving myself, tried to tell myself to move forward and remove the guilt i had, piece by piece.

I swore to myself many years ago to protect, and sacrifice for the people i love. 

If only i have the power and courage to do so.