My mind, my thoughts are all crystal clear.

Sometimes, I get the meaning when people say things happen for a reason. It taught us meaningful lessons, be it good one or the bad one. Throughout most of my life, I live in guilt, guilt of what should be done, guilt of things that isn't entire out of my control. I tried my best forgiving myself, tried to tell myself to move forward and remove the guilt i had, piece by piece.

I swore to myself many years ago to protect, and sacrifice for the people i love. 

If only i have the power and courage to do so. 

It's been years, since I enter this blog again. It feel strange reading the posts I wrote many years ago. I was so damage back then. No faith, no hope,never believe in unconditional love. She taught me that unconditional love do exist, i felt it myself, deep within me. I don't hate her, on the contrary, I still care,worried and wish that she will be happy. Her happiness is my joy.

It fit, everything fit into how the bible described. A bible which I do not believe in, describe perfectly my feeling.